Bucket List

1) Regain custody of my children
2) Earn my PhD in genetics
3) see my children grow into happy, healthy adults
4) Learn 2 foreign languages
5) Get my teeth taken care of and fixed
6) Visit Mexico
7) Visit a border town
8) Travel to Europe
9) Get my picture taken with Ronald McDonald
10) Stay up all night and watch the sunrise with someone I truly care about
11) Live on the East Coast for a year
12) Get at least two more tattoos
13) Buy a house in the middle of nowhere so that I have somewhere to escape to
14) Eat more veggies
15) Lose about 40 pounds
16) Take a cross country road trip
17) Visit the Grand Canyon
18) Visit the place where the meteor hit here in AZ
19) Learn how to code Linux
20) Wear a dress more often
21) Learn how to better code websites
22) Create a new website
23) See the poetry I have written get published in a book

More to come later as I decide to update this.
*smooches*
Ravn

Restraint

Hmmm.....what gives you the fucking right to contact me now? Do you think that the restraining order has been lifted? It is really fucking sad that you decided to turn your life around now that we are no longer together. No matter how hard I try, I will always love you and I fucking hate myself for that. I hate myself for loving you no matter what you did to me or to yourself. I hate you for deciding that the drugs were more important than our family and our children. I am seeing a really great guy now and adore him just as much as he adores me. He has a son that is awesome and thinks that I am really cool and told me as much ^_^ I decided a while back that I was over you and from now on, I will not let you have any control over my life. I have moved on and am happy again, happier than I have been in a long time. I have a new home that I am making for myself and our children that no longer has any remnants of you. A fresh new home, a fresh new start and it feels fucking great. From this point on, you will no longer have any fucking control over me and my emotions. Goodbye, fucker.
*smooches*

Fucking thieves

So far, I have been doing really well learning how to budget. This means that I have been keeping a keen eye on the money that I spend. One of the ways that I do this is I get a daily update from the card company with my current balance. I noticed today that my balance was a little over $20 less than it was when I checked my balance after my last purchase yesterday. Come to find out, someone had sniped my fucking card number and used it to sign up for some email service aty Fastmail.fm and for a dating site called Zoosk.com! Honestly, i use fucking Gmail for Buddha's sake, why would I pay for an email service?? As far as dating is concerned, none of the sites that I ever used were paid for and I have a boyfriend now so there is no need for a fucking dating site! I canceled the card but now I have no access to the funds that are still on there until I get the new card. I am so ready for this day to be over and I really hope that I get my new card in time to pay for rent next week or I am going to be totally fucked. Now to work on getting these two charges taken off of my account. This should be fun as one has already told me to talk to the company that issued my card and the company that issued my card told me to talk to the vendor. *sigh* Time to go home and hit up the pool with the girls.*smooches*

Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen

Yesterday, I went to see the new Transformers movie. I just want to say that it is fucking awesome, a total nerdgasm! We went to the showing at 9am and the theater was packed. Maximum occupancy was 604 and there were maybe 50 seats open once the movie started! If you saw the first Transformers movie, I STRONGLY suggest that you go see this one as well. You will not be disappointed. I absolutely loved this movie and so did the kids. Lilith and Orion were sitting on the edge of their seats during just about the whole thing and Isis was sitting there with her elephant so that he could watch it as well. Considering that Isis liked the first one OK but did not love it, she loved this one. The special affects were spectacular and the story line was defintely interesting. I enjoyed the way that story was done and thought that this was a nice addition to the series.

Father's Day update

Well, I thought that I would go ahead and update you guys on how Father's day went this past weekend. Dylan and Orion spent the night Saturday night. Sunday morning, after wishing Dylan a happy father's day, I called my dad. I was unable to get him on the phone so left him a voicemail wishing him the same. Called Granny so that I could talk to PawPaw and wish him a happy father's day and since my Uncle Harold was there, I also told him the same. When Lilith and Isis showed up, I let them call my dad and left him another voicemail with them telling him happy father's day. All in all, I think that I made the right decision. I am putting together his package tonight and sending it to him from the three of us. I hope that he likes it. It is a tshirt that says "Dad to the Bone" LOL

Father's Day

As Father's Day approaches, I am sitting here wondering how I am going to handle it this year. This will be the first year that my children are not going to be able to see their Dad on Father's Day. Considering the fact that I will have the kids that day, I am nervous about how to approach the subject if it comes up. Also, if it does not come up, should I bring it up? I do not know if they will be doing anything at the foster mom's house. I know that I got my dad a father's day gift. Should I say that it is from all three of us and send it to him, letting them sign the package? If I do let them have a part in sending my dad, their grandfather, a gift, what kind of affect will that have on them and not being able to celebrate with their own father? We did celebrate Mother's day and Lilith's birthday, but then again, there was someone in the home who we were celebrating! Should I go ahead and exclude them from celebrating it with their grandfather, and if I did, what kind of message am I sending them? Anybody out there got any suggestions or who have been in a similar situation that might be able to shed some light on my own dilemma? Thanks for reading, *smooches*

Trekkie Kids

Saw this on GeekDad today and immediately thought of my mother. Not really that she did any of these, just that she is the person most responsible for my current level of geekiness.